How long has it been?

Yes, I am alive. Wow. I'm back 'into' blogging, because for some reason my journal (which I still faithfully write in) has made me want to share things with the rare people who read this.
How is it that a perfectly good friendship can be randomly weakened because they start getting on your nerves? I really don't get it. I mean, I love my friends, but they are totally out of it. Completely. I told my friend today that I wanted to send back my phone (which I am) because it was unstewardly, and she didn't get it at all! So many people don't understand that I can't, in all honesty, spend money on a camera phone when people are starving! I know, I know, the whole 'starving children in Africa' thing is overused, but it's true! So... I've decided that everyone in my school, including me, are pretty materialistic. Not that its always a bad thing.
And I'm kinda getting annoyed cause my friends and I are... drifting. Like, I'm becoming the third wheel. And I hate that, so it's branching out time. They don't need me as much anymore, so I might leave before I get hurt. How can you determine when to pull back and when to wade in? How can you get close without getting hurt? I just don't want to make the same mistake again. It hurt to much the first time. Til later.