Bitter

a whirling
dizzying spin
and all you see
color
too many
mixed
and you feel sick
but you hold on
because
it's beauty
and pain
and more than that
it's you

you fix your eyes
look ahead
beyond the rain
splattered windshield
and wish
for sunshine and
a world with less pain
a pain that isn't
so bitter
metallic
so strong in your mouth

you want to let go
but you can't
it's too hard
too much and
too there
for you to just
let go
it keeps you sane
and binds you
down
stops you from
flying up high
but it's
real and
there and
alive

... and now i see, life is like a pond with a rock thrown in, and the ripples are fast and slow and in between...
and we get caught up in them, and we forget that it's just a pond, and ripples don't last forever...