Fairytale lights... and brutal reality

I just went to see Butchart Gardens lights... how gorgeous can you get? Seriously. It's like being in a fairy tale, and then to add to the glory, you can see the "Twelve Days of Christmas"... I half expected a knight in shining armor to come and sweep me onto his stallion! *sigh* Then I listened to the news, and reality comes crashing in. The earthquake/tsunami reaction is awful... I can hardly bear to watch the suffering wrought on the poor civilians. I can only support from afar, financially, and pray. It sucks. The whole "can't do anything about it" scenario. At times like these it's hard to see God's plan, but we can only wait and trust in His love and power. Not an easy thing. God, please comfort those who suffer... Until later... waiting for His guidance.

A lot on my mind...

Well, I've got a lot on my mind. To begin with, my cousin's moving in with her boyfriend. Fun, fun fun. Not so much. Secondly, I'm trying to sort it out. Feelings, concerns... where does everything end? Its ridiculus. Seriously. When does friendship cease, and something more begin? How can you keep your rules and standards, your morality and self-control, when everything inside of you screams out against everything? My friend has decided that dating someone is important... not unusual, I suppose. But how am I supposed to fit into the picture now? Another friend is struggling... with his identity, I suppose. I can't help but feel that if he tried, he could see himself the way others see him. Oh well.
However. It's almost Christmas (good on many behalfs) and my computer is my present. Yippee! And, of course, it's a chance to reflect on the birth that began it all... and the death that would bring life. THANK YOU JESUS! Without him... where would the evidence be?